12 May 2010

sometimes it's better to...

say nothing. the sound of wallowing is pretty boring.

last week we scattered nan's ashes. it's nearly a year since she passed away. we don't like to rush things in my family! a day of french fancies and a walk in the woods, just what nan would have liked. not a day goes by without thinking of her. particularly when at work.

we've now taken ownership of her old bureau. it's sat in pride of place in the front room, stuffed with maps and note books. all adventures will be planned from here. again, this is something she would have approved of. every time the desk is opened, a flowery scent fills the room. a whiff of nan. if you knew her this would mean a lot more. particularly after she lost her little yorkshire terrier...she could no longer blame certain 'whiffs' on suzie!

since the fling i've been finding things a little tough. physically and mentally. but some proper rest days and some good talking, things are returning to normal.

15 comments:

Red Bike said...

X

Ian Charters said...

Try and have some gentle days out in the hills and you will soon begin to remember just how life affirming these days are, no competition, no pressure, only enjoyment. In the meantime <<>>

Emma said...

Hi Kate, wondered where you had gone. Sounds a couple of tough weeks, I agree with Ian, go easy on yourself for a bit and remember to let enjoyment into your life to counter balance the rest. X

trio said...

What does 3am 3pm mean on your training schedule?

We all have these hard times, January was mine! It's impossible to be raring to go all the time!

Hugs

Charlie said...

Sounds like tough times. Hang on in there. Best wishes.

ultra collie said...

you're turning the corner by the sounds of it kate
keep on turning

Simon said...

Hi Kate, been following your blog for a couple of weeks. I lost my nan too in March. My biggest fan. She'd come to all my races rain or shine, and now there's a big gap that's been left.

Keep plodding on, keep hanging on and you'll get there.

Weirdly, I've taken my nan's old bureau in too! Best Wishes, Simon

Jo said...

:-(

Pedalling Polarcherry said...

don't think, just go for a run and clear your mind. you'll feel back to normal in no time.

big hugs x

ps. if that run needs to be a climb you know my number x

vdubber67 said...

Hey...sending happy vibes your way..

What is it about Nans and French Fancies? My dear departed Grannie loved them too. I suspect it's part of the initiation rite into grandmother-hood or something...

Rich (vdubber67)

:)

kate said...

red- :)

ian- as always, i know your advice is right and good.

emma- thanks. hope it's going well for you....right now i think you should be heading down to wasdale...

trio- i'm trying to run in the morning and evening. sometimes to work and sometimes just to give myself more time to recover. failed this week, couldn't get out of bed early enough.

charlie- thanks. my biggest 'injury' is my bloody brain ;)

uc- nearly there... :)

simon- hi there, thanks for stopping by. your nan sounds ace, i hope you keep racing. what a strange 'bureau coincidence'! i'm really enjoying having it in the house. my nan used it more for eating off of than writing letters, and always makes me smile. you keep plodding too :)

jo- the sun is shining and things are looking up :)

ppc- cheers mate :)

rich- someone needs to do some serious research regarding the age at which one starts purchasing their own fancies ;) ....will be in touch soon, sorry for being a bit flaky.

trio said...

There is a lot of research that says training twice a day is good. I suppose I get that with my commute! No tips for getting up in time, I keep meaning to get up early and run and it doesn't happen!

Groover said...

Chin up, girl. I can only repeat what others already said. It sucks right now but it's not going to last forever! Big hugs!

Daz H said...

feel for you Kate x

kate said...

thanks daz :)